The Night.

Somehow, it doesn’t feel like a Friday night. I don’t know. Maybe I’m just slowly being driven insane. I’m very depressed about my tummy, which has refused to “go down” since I had Kaylee via c-section in 2011. I seriously look like I’m pregnant when I totally relax my belly… and this bothers me greatly, almost to the point of tears. Its bad enough that I want breast augmentation done, and now I am considering a tummy tuck. 

My personal relationship with you-know-who is just…. exhausting. I can’t describe it any other way. I wish things could be different, but they aren’t. I have a lot on my mind. I’m hoping my sleep medication kicks in soon… because insomnia and a toddler don’t mix. 

I never heard back from Susan about the Burlesque show. That is bugging me. Starting work again is also on my mind. I wonder if I’ll be okay. 

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I’m still learning my way with the Gyaru style. I have the eyelashes down pat, now I just need my circle lenses to come in! I may also straighten my wig… I don’t know if I like the wave(s) it has… and my oh my the bangs are long! I finally found two lip shades which are PERFECT and they were really cheap—— 0.79 cents!!! I am the queen of finding steals! 

Too bad the manager at H&M wouldn’t let me buy the wig I saw on the mannequin. It was such pretty white/pale shade of blond. :) 

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A roast beef and cheddar wrap for lunch. I am practically foaming at the mouth for my order to come in the mail. I ordered a chestnut light brown wig (with bangs) and I’m super excited to see what its going to look like… you know, on me! Its been eight days… so I hope it arrives soon! 

Today is a rather slow day, as I took care of my errands earlier. 

I’m in the process of finding some local part time work… but not necessarily having much luck in finding anything. Sometimes, I feel like I’m going to crawl right out of my skin. I don’t miss the boss, I miss the check. ;) 

Whoever thought that writing a book could take so friggin long! I had writer’s block for several weeks, almost a month actually. I’m just now getting back into it… and I’m hoping I can kind of “catch up” and have it make sense. 

Well, that’s all for now. 

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"It’s hard to get along with people. As much as you try to like them and accept them as individuals, it becomes difficult because they keep getting out of line and wasting your time. "

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